My Happy Story in a Time of Tragedy

One of the things that I’ve been doing when it comes to healing after losing Elena is thinking about the happy moments. Focusing on the good.

Yes, our daughter is no longer with us, yes it was tragic and still is but that doesn’t mean that there weren’t good times as well.

In a weird way my favorite memory of her is when I gave birth to her. Yes it was too soon and I knew she wouldn’t make it but it was also the first time I got to meet my daughter and that’s a moment that every mother cherishes!

In the days after my water broke at 18 weeks and before going into labor I joined a couple of support groups. I read miracle stories and sad stories as well. I was well aware that most likely my story would fall in the sad story group and I wanted to be prepared. So many women who pPROM’d and delivered their baby had babies that were born sleeping. I had no doubt in my mind that that would be the case for me as well.

I checked Elena’s heartbeat multiple times after my water broke and every time she had a nice strong heartbeat. It gave me so much hope that she would be one of the miracle babies I read about on my pPROM boards. Sadly she wasn’t but she was a miracle to me in another way. After I gave birth to her I immediately went to go see if she was a boy or a girl we didn’t know the sex previous to her being born.

I went to open her legs and she SNAPPED them shut before I could see if my baby was a he or a she! It caught me totally by surprise because all the other stories I had read about people in my situation had had different outcomes.

I got to spend 30 minutes with her, holding her, talking to her, and singing to her before she passed. Then I was able to see that she was the little girl I had wished and hoped for and those 30 minutes and beyond were while some of my saddest also some of my happiest moments with Elena. Moments I will never ever forget.

I just submitted this story to Happy Baby Stories submitting the story was *super* easy and I was also able to donate a dollar, from which Save Babies Through Screening Foundation gets grants.

Save Babies Through Screening is near and dear to my heart thanks in large part to Kristine and Cora. And I encourage you all to share your Happy Baby Story or ANY Happy story through the website to help spread some happiness and help Save Babies!
September is a GREAT month to support Save Babies because it’s also National Newborn Screening Month. Feel free to pin, tweet and FB this post to help spread the word 🙂

 

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Comments

  1. Trish says

    Being pregnant myself, I’m just heartbroken over your story. I’m so sorry for your loss, but I’m so happy you got to have those few precious moments with your baby girl. I know you’ll cherish them forever.

  2. says

    You’re story is truly heartbreaking. I’m so happy that you got to spend time with Elena, even if it was only 30 minutes, I’m sure those 30 minutes felt like a lifetime when you had your little girl in your arms.

  3. says

    Thank you for sharing your amazing story! It breaks my heart every time I read it and I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I know you’ll always cherish those precious moments you had with her and that can never be taken away from you.

  4. Jenna says

    How wonderful that you were able to have those moments with your daughter. I’m so sorry for the loss of Elena. It warms my heart to know that you were able to have those precious moments with her in such a time of tragedy.

  5. Brittney Reader says

    I am so sorry for your loss and am glad you got to spend a little time with your little girl. You have so much strength and a positive attitude to see it in such good light. I am sure it wasnt easy. Happy Holidays to you and your family.

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