Today has been a crazy emotional day for me. The whole last couple of weeks have been. I’m having a hard time coping with the fact that my little girl isn’t here. That she never will be.
I miss her so much, yes I function on a daily basis, what choice do I have? But not a second goes by that I don’t think about her.
I keep imagining what today should have been like, her due date.
Would we already be snuggling her? Would she have spent the day curled in my arms nursing?
Or would we anxiously be awaiting her arrival like we were doing on her big brother’s due date?
We did some things to remember her by today. We each sent her a balloon with a message on it. I have pictures that I will post when I get around to it. I just don’t know if I have the energy today.
Today was draining.
I can only hope that I can learn to cope a little better as the months go on.
I just hope that she knows this
I hope you’re doing the same for us baby girl.