Elena’s BFP Story

I know many women especially those struggling to get pregnant will hate me for this but I didn’t “try” with Mason or Elena.

With Mason I didn’t really think I could be pregnant but looking back I totally was and I got symptoms early.

With Mason I was emotional and super bloated. But it didn’t occur to me that I could be pregnant until I woke up one day and realized that I should be getting my period soon and didn’t. Turns out I was suppose to get it THAT day. I made B run out and get a pregnancy test, it was a Saturday and a total squinter. To the point where I thought “that’s not a line”, I’m not pregnant. Well obviously I was.

With Elena I just felt off which was half of the reason I was thinking about testing even though I didn’t think I could be pregnant. I tested on a Sunday, 8 days before I was expecting my period.

Why did I test?

Well the day before I was talking to B’s mom and I was telling her about how I had a dream that my Mom had died. I said to her

“I don’t know why I’m having such crazy dreams”

and this little voice inside of me (the same one that told me my water was going to break) said “It’s because you’re pregnant”.

I brushed it aside but than that Sunday I was watching this show on TLC about winning the lotto and this man said something about how even though he’s a millionaire he’s still working because he wants his daughter to be a millionaire one day.

Cue the water works.

I went online to a group of trusted blogger friends and told them. They all instantly started saying PREGNANT PREGNANT. I decided to take a test that night.

Negative.

They all told me NOOOOO too early. Way too early.

But I was convinced I wasn’t pregnant. I got a BFN. I couldn’t be pregnant. Then Wednesday rolls around and I’m on the phone with a friend and I’m at Walmart and all I’m talking about is food. I wanted to make Chili’s Queso Dip, but I was also in the mood for ice cream OH and I wanted sour patch kids or maybe I wanted  pretzels and dip.

My friend giggled and said you’re totally pregnant. So I got a test.

I drove home and immediately took it. It said you could read it after a minute and it was negative so I said SEE I’m NOT pregnant. Then I tucked it into the side of my pants so I could throw it away.

45 minutes later I had forgotten it was there and I pulled it out and for some reason looked.

Two Lines.

HUH?! I rushed to my blogger group and posted the picture but told them it was 45 minutes later. They made me post the earlier picture and the new one and told me to pee on another stick. Being the chronic pee’er on a stick that I am I had another one so I peed again. As soon as the pee started rushing across the test I saw it.

Two Lines.

Positive.

Pregnant.

My first words “At least it’s a girl”.

I wasn’t exactly ready to be pregnant with Elena. I had blogged about how B and I were going to wait longer. But I KNEW she was a girl and within an hour I was SO excited to be having a baby in July of 2012. She would be exactly 2 1/2 years younger than Mason.

It was perfect.

Oreo Cheesecake Cookies
Robbed.

Comments

  1. Melissa says

    I struggled with infertility with all 3 of my pregnancies (one of which ended at 9 weeks ) and I promise, I don’t begrudge anyone who doesn’t have that problem. In fact, a friend of mine said that high fertility is it’s own issue, as you are working hard to prevent pg until you are ready.

    As long as the parents in question love and support their children, I say good for you, go for it. Not gonna say I’m not a little sad when I know there will be no more babies for me, but that’s no reason to take anyone else’s joy.

    Wishing you nothing but blessings as always!

    • Christa says

      I’m so sorry for your loss and your struggle with infertility. I hope I didn’t offend you. I’ve just been in a lot of loss groups lately and many girls vent about people who don’t have trouble getting pregnant especially when they weren’t trying!

      • Melissa says

        Oh please! I’m harder to offend than that! No worries. Mostly I don’t want you to feel as though you should apologize for not having fertility issues. It’s a b%#$% and I wouldn’t want anyone to go through it. I’m glad that’s one less thing you have to deal with.

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