I know many women especially those struggling to get pregnant will hate me for this but I didn’t “try” with Mason or Elena.
With Mason I didn’t really think I could be pregnant but looking back I totally was and I got symptoms early.
With Mason I was emotional and super bloated. But it didn’t occur to me that I could be pregnant until I woke up one day and realized that I should be getting my period soon and didn’t. Turns out I was suppose to get it THAT day. I made B run out and get a pregnancy test, it was a Saturday and a total squinter. To the point where I thought “that’s not a line”, I’m not pregnant. Well obviously I was.
With Elena I just felt off which was half of the reason I was thinking about testing even though I didn’t think I could be pregnant. I tested on a Sunday, 8 days before I was expecting my period.
Why did I test?
Well the day before I was talking to B’s mom and I was telling her about how I had a dream that my Mom had died. I said to her
“I don’t know why I’m having such crazy dreams”
and this little voice inside of me (the same one that told me my water was going to break) said “It’s because you’re pregnant”.
I brushed it aside but than that Sunday I was watching this show on TLC about winning the lotto and this man said something about how even though he’s a millionaire he’s still working because he wants his daughter to be a millionaire one day.
Cue the water works.
I went online to a group of trusted blogger friends and told them. They all instantly started saying PREGNANT PREGNANT. I decided to take a test that night.
They all told me NOOOOO too early. Way too early.
But I was convinced I wasn’t pregnant. I got a BFN. I couldn’t be pregnant. Then Wednesday rolls around and I’m on the phone with a friend and I’m at Walmart and all I’m talking about is food. I wanted to make Chili’s Queso Dip, but I was also in the mood for ice cream OH and I wanted sour patch kids or maybe I wanted pretzels and dip.
My friend giggled and said you’re totally pregnant. So I got a test.
I drove home and immediately took it. It said you could read it after a minute and it was negative so I said SEE I’m NOT pregnant. Then I tucked it into the side of my pants so I could throw it away.
45 minutes later I had forgotten it was there and I pulled it out and for some reason looked.
HUH?! I rushed to my blogger group and posted the picture but told them it was 45 minutes later. They made me post the earlier picture and the new one and told me to pee on another stick. Being the chronic pee’er on a stick that I am I had another one so I peed again. As soon as the pee started rushing across the test I saw it.
My first words “At least it’s a girl”.
I wasn’t exactly ready to be pregnant with Elena. I had blogged about how B and I were going to wait longer. But I KNEW she was a girl and within an hour I was SO excited to be having a baby in July of 2012. She would be exactly 2 1/2 years younger than Mason.
It was perfect.