I can’t believe it’s already been a month since we had you, it seems like yesterday and an eternity all at the same time. Words can’t even begin to express how much we miss you.
I talk to your big brother about you all the time! Yesterday he grabbed a little pink bear ran up to Mommy and Daddy and said “Lane-a’s Bear”. At bedtime tonight he saw the bear in bed and said “Lane-a’s Bear” again and made me put it next to him and cover it with the blanket. Mason would have been the best big brother you could have asked for! I’m pretty sure you can see that from where you are.
We’ve had a candle lit since we woke up this morning, I think about you every second of the day but wanted to do something a little extra special today. It was a white one but I ran out mid-day to get a purple one so that’s what burning now. I’ve decided that purple would have been “your color”, with dark hair like your Dad and brother and green eyes like me (hopefully), you would have looked so adorable in purple.
Your memory box should be coming soon, it’s going to be hard to get it, just another reminder that you’re gone but it’s going to be perfect to put all your stuff in. You know what I just realized? The very first thing I bought you was a purple cloth diaper. Apparently I knew purple would be your color from the start.
Tomorrow I would have been 22 weeks with you, I wish that was still the way it was. I would give anything to have you here with me now.
I love you and miss you,