There is Always Hope

If you didn’t read my last post, I have a little spoiler alert for you.

There’s a baby in my belly. A half baked baby! This is my sweet little bean at 15 weeks and 5 days.

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We are so excited to have another baby on the way. When I see Mason and Kyla running around playing with each other I can imagine this baby running along side them in the next two years and it makes my heart so full.

As I announced my pregnancy to family and friends, both those I’ve gotten the chance to hug in real life and those who have received virtual hugs, I tried to be mindful. This is a joyful time for me but I remember the ache of wanting so badly to be pregnant of seeing other pregnant people, of pregnancy announcements that stung. Not because I wasn’t happy for them. But because I wanted to be in their position too. I wanted to be pregnant. I wanted to announce a pregnancy.


After three years of being in the loss community there is one thing I’ve learned. There is always hope.

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That’s why month after month we all try and do whatever we need to do to get a little baby safely in our bellies and then 40 weeks later (give or take) in our arms. Hope is why we sit and talk for hours about all the different things we can try in order to conceive, the things that helped other people and the things that didn’t. Even when we think we’re ready to throw in the towel, we don’t.


When it came to adding our rainbow baby to the mix. I tried just about everything and if you’ve ever been TTC for longer than a couple of months I’m sure you have too. It feels good to feel like you’re doing something to help the process along. I know that feeling. For me being proactive helped calm my brain. Eating a healthy diet, exercise, a positive attitude and even the right type of lubrication can make all the difference in the world.

Astroglide TTC™ is just one of the things you can add to what you’re already doing. It’s formulated specifically for those who are trying to conceive. It has adjusted pH levels to help create a hospitable environment for sperm and has a consistency similar to a woman’s cervical mucus.

Ready to try it? You can find it here.

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Astroglide TTC™ sponsored this blog post. The opinions and text are all mine

Things Are About to Change BIG Time Around Here

When I first started writing these posts about conceiving another baby I wasn’t sure if we would ever have another baby.  I knew that *I* wanted to have another baby but I also knew that B was done. So that meant that I was done. But I also knew that my family didn’t feel complete. While I know it will never be complete on one level since Elena is not with us I knew this was a different kind of complete. I knew another baby was something I wanted for our family but I also knew it wasn’t going to happen.

Until it happened.

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While it was a “surprise”, I do know where babies come from so it wasn’t a HUGE surprise. B however seems to not know where babies come from because he was shocked. I’ve since schooled him and explained to him how it all works.

So now you’re doing math right? Let me make it easy for you! As of publishing this post I’m 20 Weeks and 6 days. I’m MORE than half baked. I do have some back dated posts to publish on this pregnancy. There are various reasons why it took me so long to come out of the closet and let me tell you it was HARD because I wanted to scream it from the roof tops. A baby is a blessing and I feel more than blessed to get the chance to mother another little baby.

Mason and Kyla are SO excited. Kyla is convinced a baby sister is on the way. Mason is convinced a baby brother is on the way. As for me, I really don’t know! I thought boy at first and then girl and now I go back and forth. I’m hoping to be Team Green this time around. I’m pretty sure I can hold strong.

This is from our anatomy scan at almost 16 weeks. It’s a perfect angle for the skull theory.

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What’s your guess? Does this baby look like a girl or a boy? 

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Reasons Why My Baby Is Crying…

If there’s one thing I love it’s a round of “Reasons why my baby is crying”. It always cracks me up to hear the reasons why babies/toddlers are crying because it’s usually totally irrational. Imagine that right? Babies and Toddlers not being rational! There are so many times throughout the last 5 years that one of my kids were crying for a reason that made me throw my arms up in defeat. So many times it’s because we were trying to protect them or help them in some way. One of those moments I wrote about here.

Now that Mason is 5 he has started to pass the torch to his sister who is more than willing to keep the fire lit. She has been picking up the pace lately it seems. I’m trying my hardest to find the humor in it all. Because really that’s the only think you can do sometimes. Just laugh, try to diffuse the situation and move on.

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My mom’s group and I will often share the irrational reasons our kids are crying and it’s one of my favorite things to do on my Facebook which is exactly what I did here. I think the reason I love hearing from other moms about the irrational reasons their baby is crying is because it makes me feel less alone. I’m not the only one dealing with an irrational random crying machine. These are some of my favorites from the most recent round on Facebook. I would love if you shared yours there or in the comments below!

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These are all totally rational reasons to cry and freak out right!? Which one is your favorite? I think mine is the little boy who wanted to drink shampoo!

Most of these kids are toddlers and preschoolers but what about when your infant baby is crying? More often than not when they cry they’re not being irrational. There is typically a reason. Usually it’s one of a few reasons:

  1. They have a dirty diaper.
  2. They’re hungry.
  3. They’re tired.
  4. They’re gassy.

I usually address my baby crying in that exact order. First I check their diaper, then I feed them which more often than not results in them sleeping but when it doesn’t my next guess is gas. So what do I do when my baby is gassy? I have a couple of things in my arsenal.

  1. I massage my baby’s tummy.
  2. I bicycle their legs.
  3. I wear my baby.
  4. Little Remedies Gripe Water.

If the first three don’t work I reach for Little Remedies Gripe Water. It helps to calm the storm in their tummies.

Now it’s your turn! Why is your baby crying? Something irrational or a gassy belly? One is easier than the other to fix. ;) 

Disclosure: This post was inspired by Little Remedies.

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In the Kitchen

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How to Freeze Pancakes

Mason starts school tomorrow. School. Not preschool. School. Kindergarten to be exact! I can't believe that we're already at this point. I feel like I should have prepared more for this moment. Feeling overwhelmed with everything I have to do and what's about to come prompted me to make a huge batch ... read more